The sign reads, in need of seeing eye dog who can dig holes too and maybe even focus a camera. I am going to need a serious helper dog for the next stage of my life. I’m going to wish for a Labradoodle which is what I wanted all along. It just hasn’t been in the budget but I’m thinking I need to move that up to the top of the list and start training it/her/him asap.
Now don’t be alarmed because preparation is the author of success but I did not receive good news today from my eye dr. No sir…seems I’m going to be in need of a good dog who can be in the garden with me and guide me around too. Since coming down with Ramsay Hunt Syndrome, the steroid treatment is not working on the damage to my eyes. I could be blind in my right eye anytime between now and a year from now with the other eye following suit in the next 5 years or sooner. So what does one do when they have a year to prepare for eye sight loss?
They start prioritizing of course. I’m a planner. I have done my share of crying and will do more. It’s a grieving process. I’m on loads of meds to fight it every step of the way and many prayers are going up in hopes this is put off as long as possible but realistically it is looking like months and not years.
I have a very strong faith that God allows things for His glory. It’s not for me to question or understand but it is for me to show how great God is in the process. I happen to think God likes Labradoodles so am aiming toward that goal. haha! God made me—He has humor.
I will teach the dog to help me garden and I have no clue right now how but I will sure write about how funny it’s going to be doing ever step of it. How fun that will be.
So having the dog out of the way….I want to make a bucket list of things I need to file in my photographic memory to call upon when my sight fails.
1. My husband…I’m going to stare at him for endless hours doing everything from eating to how he darts his eyes at me lovingly.
2. study every feature of my children and their precious ladies. They will be forever frozen in my mind around the age of 30ish as they all are in the prime of their lives with zeal to work hard and how precious they move though life. Their homes and my grand pets. I will study this is great detail and write down things you don’t usually notice so that they can read it back to me should I forget.
3. I will go through every photo especially of the baby pictures and file them away in the tender parts of my brain reserved for the baby powder smells and blankie moments.
4. I will start making my home predictable with things always in the same place…familiar. I will plan recipes that can be fixed easily by me and take the burden off Gary. I will have grovery lists done for whole months so that he doesn’t have to think about what is needed. I will be strong and able to contribute to our family just as I always have.
5. I will teach my two daughter in laws to can so we can continue to garden together. I will get my pantries in order.
6. I will teach the whole family that we will be ok and that we will get through this. I will get a computer that lets me continue to tell my story and tell you how I am getting along.
There are things I need to complete my journey this year before I lose my sight:
1. I need a labradoodle.
2. I need a fence around my house and I have a big yard.
3. I need a lot of good garden soil.
4. I need my back porch closed in with a/c and heat.
5. I need part of my back porch closed in for a greenhouse type area.
6. I need a new roof for Copper Top Cottage and a it needs a new front door and patio.
So there is much to be done. Only God knows if it will all be accomplished but I will concentrate on the most important ones. I hope that while my dog can still drive that Volkswagon will give me a little car to drive around while we can still see. Me and the doodle want to pick up plants to decorate the doodle yard.